At the start of each day of my popular 1 or 2-week Body Electronics Ultimate Healing Intensive, I give a talk before we start the point-holding session exchanges. What follows is a transcript of the first day’s talk of the Intensive in Thailand in February 2017. An audio recording of the first day’s talk in 2015 can be found here – the content is similar. Check out the upcoming courses in The Netherlands and the UK this summer.
We are going to start with the basics of how this all works.
We are basically working with a combination of mind and body where thought patterns are crystallized in the body. To start with let’s look at the creation myth.
In the beginning the Goddess blew a bubble of her love. This bubble was pretty small for the Goddess – about 300 billion light years across. That’s how big they say the universe is anyway. And into that bubble she breathed her life.
Now it’s interesting how science has discovered that the universe is a spherical hologram. You know with a hologram, if you shine a beam of light onto it, it creates a three-dimensional image. A spherical hologram is like a bubble. You shine a light into it and it refracts all over the place and creates a complex world inside it – out of light. So the whole universe is like that – it’s a bubble about 300 billion light years across, light enters into it, refracts everywhere, creates a refraction pattern and you’ve got a whole universe created. This creates an interference pattern of light.
Physics has shown for a long time that nothing is really solid – it’s just vibrations, energy. For example, this (table) isn’t solid. If it wasn’t for the energy field of moving particles you would fall right through it. To give you an understanding of how empty it all is, if all the electrons were collapsed into the nuclei of the atoms in the whole world, the world would be one centimetre across. That should give you an idea of how much space there is.
Then they found that wasn’t solid either. Because that nucleus consisted of protons and neutrons with space between them. And those are not solid either. They consist of quarks with space between. And those are not solid either. They consist of neutrinos. Then they found the space between also consisted of neutrinos, but vibrating at a different rate. The difference between a substance and a nothing is the rate of vibration of the neutrino.
So scientists were trying to explore why a neutron becomes an electron one moment, and positron one moment and nothing the next, and they found they always became what you expected them to become. So really, they are agreeing with what the mystics were saying all the way along, it’s all an illusion created by our expectation, by our consciousness.
Science can give us an image of how it works through the wave pattern duality model – particles only exist when they are observed, first it’s all energy, all waves. If we look at the way the universe exists as a wave pattern, everything within that is also a reflection of another wave pattern – like our bodies have an aura, it’s like a bubble – an interference pattern of our consciousness, of our energies, creates the body. It’s like our whole life, our existence, is a standing wave pattern., creating all these different waves, which are our different thoughts.
Now when you change any wave the whole wave pattern collapses and produces a new wave pattern. So, one doesn’t have to understand every single wave within that. If you know how resonance works – you change one wave, you change the whole pattern.
So it’s this wave pattern that then creates our body. We need to know a little bit about how that affects the DNA, as that is going to affect the way we will work. DNA is a focussed manifestation of the wave – it’s a coil – it goes down seven times and the coil comes up seven times. It’s a double coil.
Because the wave goes down one coil and up the other the resultant energy field has no direction. It’s going both ways at once. It’s what we call a scalar wave. It’s an information package with no direction. So every thought, every feeling we have creates this little scalar wave in every single DNA coil in the body.
Now what happens when we experience things consciously the first part of that wave goes through the corpus collossum between the two hemispheres of the brain. The corpus collossum is in the shape of a moebius strip. It’s a strip that twists back on itself. So in between (the two sides of) your brain you’ve got this piece of paper – so any wave going round there goes through a 180-degree phase change which means it’s going to cancel out the wave stored in the DNA coils.
So everything exists as a wave within the DNA until you experience it fully. Our DNA is full of these waves of any thoughts or thought patterns and emotional experiences you haven’t consciously experienced. Everything we have suppressed is still in the DNA in every single cell of the body. So cutting a bit of the body off doesn’t get rid of it because it’s in every single cell. So, say, a person has a diseased organ and you cut that organ off, the pattern of that disease is still in every single DNA molecule in the body. So they will create the problem somewhere else because the body is acting as a hologram trying to reproduce according to those patterns.
So our thought patterns, emotions, everything we suppress exists first as a wave in the DNA and will start forming a chip, a crystal. The crystal is made out of a melamine protein complex which it draws out of the body, it creates a little crystal inside the DNA. Therefore all our thoughts actually become crystallized, little crystals of stored memory. And these crystals start playing with the function of the DNA. Therefore they affect the body and how it develops, which is why you get diseases. Every disease is a change in the energy pattern first which then manifest as crystals in the DNA which then change the function of the body and its structure.
So let’s look at how emotions get stored in layers. Now the seven coils of DNA can be seen as seven layers of suppression which fit with different emotions. When you experience anything with enthusiasm the life force is 100% present. Enthusiasm, when you break it down, means ‘God in you’. ‘Ent’ was an old name for God, so enthusiasm means you are fully present and the life force is fully present. Anything less than enthusiasm means you’re not fully there.
The first level of suppression is pain. Pain is there when things are other than you want them to be. You judge things as ‘I like this / I don’t like that’. You’re pushing half of reality away. So pain itself is the first level of suppression. So when you are in paid you start to crystallise the DNA because you don’t want to feel that pain. That gets pushed inside and goes to the first level of the coil of DNA, which also corresponds to the heart chakra and the pituitary gland.
If you push it down a bit further you suppress pain and you get angry – because you want things to change. When you suppress the anger it goes to the thyroid gland, and the next coil of the DNA.
When you get tired of anger you go into fear because you think things are not going to change. Fear goes to the thymus gland.
When you suppress the fear, you go into the victim stage, where you are just worried about how things are going to happen, to continue, so you’re in this kind of grieving pattern of feeling a victim and that gets stored in the pancreas and adrenal gland.
When you suppress the grief, you go into apathy. You just can’t be bothered, everything’s too much, you don’t want to deal with it anymore – and that goes to the spleen.
When you suppress that you go into unconsciousness and you aren’t even aware of the problem anymore. And that goes to the gonads (reproductive organs), the lowest part.
So we are suppressing things in that order. From enthusiasm into pain, then anger, then fear, then grief, then apathy and then unconsciousness, getting more and more crystallised in our DNA.
So what we are going to heal is from the bottom upwards. So the first thing you will experience during healing is unconsciousness. Any time you’ve been knocked out, numbed out, taken drugs, anaesthetics – you go numb – you’ll experience that as it comes out in the body because you feel numb in the body and feel floaty and distant in the mind. That’s good, cause you have to get it out.
A lot of people are too keen to get to the ‘juicier’ emotions – they want their anger out and to get their fear out. But actually the first thing that happens is you go numb. Then you get the apathy. Actually those ‘low’ emotions are more debilitating than the ‘higher’ ones. The problem is, people don’t know how to deal with apathy and depression because it’s depressing to deal with. You go to a therapist with anger and they get some juice out of it – you find you anger and express it. When you get there depressed they get depressed with you and they can’t help you with it. So the first thing is to feel it. And we feel it with enthusiasm.
You see, with enthusiasm being the top of the scale, it tends to bring all the emotions up. When we experience enthusiasm, you produce a kind of hormone-like substance in the body which starts dissolving those crystals. So, not only do you go through memories, you do so enthusiastically.
So, when you’re numb, you feel enthusiastic about being numb. When you’re in apathy you feel that enthusiastically. What does that mean? When you’re feeling depressed you’re going ‘oh I’m depressed, I feel terrible’ – put some enthusiasm into how it feels. Because that’s what raises up the scale to go to the next emotion. So, whatever you feel, you simply feel it enthusiastically.
Now to do that you first have to start to learn how to welcome emotions by not identifying with them. There are two basic reasons why we suppress emotions. First of all judgement, and secondly identification.
When you judge things, you stop feeling them, and that’s why you push them down. If the idea of being angry is bad, you push it down. If you think ‘don’t be afraid, it’s weak’ you push that inside, and so on. Stop crying, you’re being weak – push that inside. So we have all these judgements about emotions and we push them inside.
What stops us from releasing also is identification. If you think you are the emotion you no longer have a place to release it. A person will often say, for example, instead of feeling angry ‘I’m an angry person’. It becomes who you are. When you’re in that position, you’re not in a position where you can actually release it. Because when you release an emotion you know it’s not ‘you’. But there’s a boundary ‘ ‘this is me, this is an emotion, the emotion doesn’t make any difference to who I am’. I am no different when I am angry to when I am fearful or loving or anything, I’m still the same person. As human beings we can feel anything, we can feel one thing one moment and something else the next – it doesn’t change you. So we don’t want to say I’m an angry person, or I’m a coward or a fearful person or whatever. It’s something you are feeling, not who you are.
So once you recognise it’s a feeling, you allow yourself to feel it. As soon as you stop identifying and judging you find that any feeling is just a feeling and it’s OK – you feel it – and when you start this you find it’s OK to feel anything. So, if you are feeling afraid, say ‘right, I’ll feel this fear’. Feeling angry? Great, I’ll feel this anger. Feeling depressed? Right, I’ll feel this depression. You welcome it, and, as you welcome it, it’s already changing.
Do you have a pen or anything that you can grip tight? (Demonstrates how, when holding a pen tightly, it’s hard to tell where the hand ends and the object begins. When loosening the grip, we recognise how the ‘pen’ is not part of the hand but can be released.)
It’s the same thing with the emotions. If you hang on tightly thinking ‘this is me’ you don’t let it go. Once you relax and say ‘OK. I’ll just feel this emotion’ and welcome it, it’s not you anymore. You can watch it as something separate from you, and you feel it and then it passes. You let it go. Now some feelings take longer than others to let go of – that’s why there’s no hurry. You can feel anything as long as you want to until it passes by itself. Because when you start to welcome the emotion it already starts to change.
Can you think of an emotion you felt recently? Whether it’s uncomfortable or not. And just go back to the memory. And do the same exercise with that – you let it go by letting it be there. So if you welcome that emotion you find it already starting to change.
That’s the first thing to understand in healing – whatever you feel you are simply going to welcome it in this way. As you welcome it, it comes and it goes. Then the next emotion comes up, you go up the scale, you are always feeling something. So when you finish feeling numb you go to apathetic. When you finish feeling apathy you go to the grief. After the grief, you get to the fear. After the fear, you get to the anger. And after the anger you get to the pain. Then you get back to total enthusiasm.
So there’s no hurry. You can hold each emotion for as long as it’s there. Cause you can have loads of stuff stacked up at each level. And as you release that emotion, the body will start to heat up and burn because you are breaking down those chemicals in the body that form crystals.
So this describes the Kundalini experience, because it gets hot. When you are pressing points your fingers are going to start burning. Sometimes you can get blisters on your fingers. If you don’t resist the burning you won’t blister. Because when you resist you’re blocking healing. If you feel the pain enthusiastically there’s no blistering. So even when it’s burning you welcome that.
It probably won’t burn too much to begin with but will probably increase through the week as you move up the scale. When you’re feeling numb, all you feel is numbness. It might feel a bit hot but you don’t feel it so much when it’s numb.
So on the first day, if you’re feeling numb and you’re falling asleep it’s OK. That’s reaching the lower levels, the unconsciousness. Then we get to the other emotions later on.
Going through layer by layer makes it much easier. When we try too quickly to go into the full trauma quite often you’re resisting and you can’t get there. And people often wonder why they can’t get to the emotions – well. You’ve got to go through the numbness first. There’s a scale of suppression – so the first thing you are going to feel is the numbness. When you feel unconscious you feel numb in the body, floaty in the mind – that’s exactly what you are meant to feel. Don’t try and feel anything else. Whatever you are feeling now is what you welcome. When you’ve felt that. Then you move up.
Now this is a chemical process, too, which is why nutrition is important. You’re breaking down crystals in which those emotions are stored. Once those crystals break down it frees up the rest of the body to change. The body heals from inside out. We usually start with the glandular system cause that’s where these emotions are stored. And each of those glands affects other organs, muscles and bones and everything, so as you change those patterns the whole body starts to change – it goes through a healing crisis. It lets out all these old toxins and starts rearranging itself.
Because the body is changing fast you need extra nutrients. First you need minerals because you are actually changing structure. Also, you need enzymes, because those are the catalysts for every change in the body.
The enzymes basically come in three types. There are food enzymes, digestive enzymes and metabolic enzymes. Digestive enzymes and metabolic enzymes are produced in the body. Food enzymes come in raw food. When you cook food, you destroy enzymes because they break down at about 118 degrees Fahrenheit – not very hot at all. If you cook food you destroy all the enzymes – that’s why we need to go to raw foods and fresh juices and enzyme supplements.
Enzymes are the catalysts for everything in the body. Also, they pre-digest the food. When you chew food there’s also much less work for the digestive organs to do. Because the body has limited capacity to produce enzymes, it has to produce more digestive enzymes because you are lacking food enzymes. It has less of the ability to produce metabolic enzymes you need to heal the body. Therefore the high enzyme diet lets the body heal much faster. So that’s why we have raw foods and enzymes and minerals.
If you are going to go through a lot of healing you need more of them. What you will find in the pointholding is, if you’re running out of minerals, the heat goes down. When you’re holding points you’re releasing emotion, it’s getting hot, burning. And after it’s finished burning it pulses for a while and then it stops. If you’re run out of minerals the heat goes down, it’s pulsing and burning between, not getting anything very intensely, it’s running out of energy. Because the body requires enzymes and minerals to change.
We also need enzymes and minerals to release those emotions. This being a chemical process as well. So the mind and the body are not separate in this way. You won’t get the full release without proper nutrition.
So, we’ve gone through the scale of emotions that are stored in the glandular system. And we trigger this with certain points in the body. Because the crystals store emotions – you know how you have a crystal in a lighter and when you press it you get a spark coming out of it? The same thing happens in the body – you press on it and then energy starts flowing out of it. So the reflex points in the body are also linked to the crystals in the glands, and the points are crystallised, too. It’s a bit different how the reflex points crystals are crystallised – the actually for Uric Acid crystals. But when you press those it’s the same energy pattern – the same thought patterns are stored there, which triggers the release in the glandular system. So when you are working with reflex points on the feet, the ones which are blocked tend to hurt. So you find painful spots and you push. Push where it’s painful, then you lovingly endure the pain. When you welcome that then the emotion comes out.
It’s about welcoming really – if it hurts, welcome that. Don’t give them too much pain, obviously, but give them as much as they can lovingly endure. If they are screaming and jumping up, you know you are pressing too hard. If they are not feeling any pain you know you are not pushing hard enough. But you can usually handle a little more pain that you think you can. Because you’re bringing the enthusiasm in – that’s the important point, the enthusiasm. If we start with enthusiasm, the energy is high – so whatever you feel, feel enthusiastically.
And all the people holding your points, they also enthusiastically help you. So if someone seems to be suffering, you don’t get sympathetic cause that encourages them to wallow. You say ‘That’s wonderful! Really feel that!’ Enthusiasm is what gets them higher – whatever you’re feeling, it’s great. So you need enthusiasm for whatever you’re feeling, that’s part of the process. So feel it fully, and all the people holding your points should feel enthusiastic. Not wallowing in it, and not being too sympathetic. You can have empathy, yes, and compassion, but not any sympathy. And someone used to say, ‘sympathy’ is in the dictionary between ‘shit’ and ‘syphilis’. So no sympathy. When you are being sympathetic to a person you are encouraging them to stay wallowing in that emotion and not welcoming and changing.
Enthusiasm also comes from the understanding that everyone is a creator. We are all creating our own life, our thoughts and emotions so you also have an understanding of how you created that problem. I don’t always say this straight away because people might not understand, it might not go down very well. When somebody is suffering it’s not (polite?) to say ‘you created that’. It’s a case of understanding, ‘well, this is a great creator then – they created that problem in great detail with their thoughts’. By understanding the creator it helps to keep the enthusiasm towards them. It’s the attitude towards the person that’s important. If you see them as a victim, and are being sympathetic to those emotions, they will still stay on that level. If you see them as a God, and are looking with wonder at how well they’ve created their reality and their problems …
So, something to remember when you go through your problems. You don’t have to remember exactly how you created it, but you will learn along the way as you watch how your thoughts crystallise and create things. Our thoughts and emotions are all part of what’s creating reality. And there will be more on that as we go along through the week so you know exactly what you’re creating. But you will learn along the way that it is all your creation.
So, it’s also about creating. A lot of people come, not because of physical illness, but because they want to create their reality better. You’ve created problems in your life. Things going wrong in your relationships, with money, and anything else that goes wrong. And when you see your thoughts create that, that’s often more important for some people. So some people come to heal their illness, and some people come because they want to create their reality better. Deal with the problems you’ve created all your life.
And as your thought patterns change, reality changes. Now to understand energy again, it’s not the same as impact, which is how you measure physical things. In Newtonian physics, we can see it’s like billiard balls knocking each other along, cause leading to effect. Now with quantum mechanics these days we see it’s not all about impact it’s about energy. Waves don’t knock each other along. There’s no impact, there’s only resonance. When waves come together they create a new wave, which changes the other two waves. Everything is changing as waves blend, there’s no force. So it’s not about forcing things to happen.
To understand resonance, right now this very room is filled with all the love your higher self has for you and all the love the Goddess has for you. Your present resonance is simple how much of that love you are feeling. You can’t force the Goddess to love you more because the Goddess already loves you totally. So there’s no force involved. When you change, your whole reality changes. Because you allow yourself to receive more from the universe. And as your resonance changes and there’s more love coming in your whole range of possible futures changes. Because you’re creating on a higher level.
So the first thing is to understand is that you are the love of the universe in. It’s not difficult to do because there’s love everywhere. You have to let it in. You decide to love and there it is.
If you get depressed it’s OK too – you’re supposed to feel that. When you start putting love in, the other emotions come up. The numbness, the apathy, the grief, and so on. So while your pressing points, if you feel someone getting depressed and falling asleep that’s fine. Welcome it. And after it starts wearing off, remember to be enthusiastic about it.
So when someone is feeling depressed, go ‘Wonderful! Feel that!’ That’s how you be enthusiastic about it. You just really go into the apathy and feel it fully – it’s an emotion like any other emotion. When you see it in this way, emotions are just emotions, they’re not who you are: it makes no difference what you’re feeling really. If you feel anything, it’s OK. If you feel pain there, feel some anger there, feel some fear there – welcome it: it passes like everything else. It’s not difficult.
You’re not alone in this healing. Everyone’s energy is rising, even when you’re holding points. The person who is holding can also go through release. It’s not a case of healing one person and then healing someone else – when you are holding points you are also doing your own healing. It doesn’t help the other person if your are holding back emotions, because if you’re holding back emotions they will do the same. If you are releasing your emotions it will encourage them to release. All you have to do is welcome it.
You don’t have to scream and shout, but you can if you want to. But that’s not what release is. A lot of people think you have to scream to get emotions out, but you don’t, cause sometimes you scream too much and you’re not actually feeling the emotion. You’re too busy with the distraction. You have to welcome the emotion, that’s the important thing. Sometimes it’s hard to handle big grief coming out so you cry and it’s fine. Try not to have judgement of anything.
You see, judgement is what holds things in place. The first important thing is to have no judgement. However somebody’s feeling, there’s no judgement whatsoever. Whatever they’ve done. Whatever they feel, there is no judgement. It’s wonderful. We’re all God.
The thing is, this life force, this universal energy, or God, or whatever you want to call it, it experiences its whole creation. Therefore it can experience ugly there, it can experience beauty there. It’s still the same life force experiencing itself in different ways. So there are no ‘better thans’ – there’s no right and wrong here. Whether you’re in pain or fear or anger, it’s the same universal consciousness exploring different states.
So whatever you are – whatever you’re feeling – you’re still divine. So there’s no judgement on anything. So take that away first, and put some enthusiasm in and feel it. And the body will heat up, the points will heat up, and sometimes the person holding points might be in a lot more pain than the person being done. One person might be in numbness and the other might feel their points burning, while the other one is falling asleep. They make think there’s nothing happening, but the person holding points knows there is because their fingers are burning.
Remember when you first go through numbness you might not think anything is happening, but that is actually part of the process. You will be numb, then in apathy – the other emotions come up later. If the points are burning you know it’s working. Welcome that change. We will check the iris and you will see the lesions have changed.
We’re watching the change by using Iridology. Because all the different organs all show lesions. So we press the points where there are problems in the body and we can see them healing. So we will cover that as we go along as well, showing you how to find different things in the iris.
What we are going to do now is show you how to find some of the basic points.
After the burning, when it pulses, the pulse settles to 72 beats per minute. This is not your pulse or the other person’s pulse, it’s the energy, it’s a universal blueprint defining when it becomes whole, how it should be. All our cells have this memory of how you ought to be before you had any kind of problems, and the body will restructure itself by this kind of blueprint. And that happens while it’s pulsing. You get the breakdown first and then the rebuilding. So it’s not done until the pulsing stops. So you get the emotional release and then the pulsing, and you can just lie there quietly waiting for the pulsing to finish.
So a session can go on for a few hours.
During the week, we will be raising the Kundalini gently with Candali empowerments, in safe stages, so each time it’s going to get stronger. So it doesn’t blow your head off or anything. And we will get full burning by the end of it when it goes up the spine and into the head and everywhere and the body regenerates. It’s not just the body that’s changing as I pointed out, it’s changing consciousness. You will be able to create your reality more consciously.
So there are all these blocks in there affecting what we create. Now we all come in from pure awareness and create reality, and we experience it, and when we are finished with it, it goes again. We discreate it.
The trouble is, all the things we haven’t finished with are stuck inside there. They begin to reassert themselves every time you create something new. That’s why when you visualise something, you want to create something all these things start arising – they usually manifest as doubt. It tells you things haven’t worked before and that’s why it’s coming up now. So when you try to create anything all these past memories and past creations that you’ve had, how they worked before or how they didn’t work, are what’s blocking you. They manifest as emotions first or doubt. Or come up in the anger and the fear that it’s not going to work or grief about why it didn’t work and all those things, they’ll come out, too.
If you look at your emotions they’re tied to situations in some way. You were sad because something went wrong. Because love was lost or you didn’t get what you wanted, or disappointment. These are all to do with your creation as well. If you ever thought you want to create something, do it wrong before because you had wrong beliefs or something, we build more and more emotion around those problems. So therefore, all your emotional blocks are also creating how you affect your reality.
When you are totally clear, you have a thought and it just manifests – very quickly. And the important thing is to learn how to discreate the stuff you don’t want. Because creation itself is easy itself is easy. How long do you think it actually takes to manifest something by doing a visualisation?
How long do you have to visualise something for it to manifest? Thirty-three seconds. Because that’s how long it takes for the neurons in the brain to fire, before it comes to a peak – the message has gone then. If you visualise something for 33 seconds it should manifest.
If you have to do it longer you are actually working against problems. If to manifest something you think you’ve got to visualise something 5 hours a day, what kind of beliefs are you holding? So you get rid of the negativity first. Then the manifestation becomes quick and easy. When the blocks are gone, visualise for 33 seconds and it’s going to happen quite quickly.
But it’s limited by your beliefs. Your beliefs can change gradually. But if you create momentum, and you create your expectation, you get greater expectation to manifest something next time. And things get better and better and better.
So if you say, ‘tomorrow I will create a million pounds’ it might be outside of your expectation. Try as I might, I can’t get myself to believe it. So we work on the beliefs first. All the beliefs are things that were formed in the past. So as you release past memories you are also releasing past creation, which has its own level of expectation.
What actually corrects is our desire, imagination and expectation. Desire and imagination are easy, we’ve already got those. We are all born with imagination. And as we start imagining things we start to desire things.
The difficult one to maintain is expectation. I can visualise it, but do I really expect it? The expectation is what we have got to build up. If I expect a million pounds I can then create it. If I expect 100,000 pounds, then that’s all I create. So you visualise in stages according to how your expectation grows. So as I gain greater creation and manifest more things, my expectation grows and I create more and more and more. So it’s going to be a gradual process of raising up – we’re not going to jump from zero to a million. There’ll be stages in-between.
So what I am saying is visualisation to creation is quick and easy – if it takes a long time it’s your beliefs that are in the way. Rather than visualise three hours a day, let go of the negatives and visualise just 33 seconds. Because a lot of people that will visualise for hours are still in the same belief pattern, and the need to visualise for hours is revealing. What are they really going to create with those thought patterns, with those beliefs.
So maybe make a list of all the things you want to create. It’s all about creation – what we are here to do – create dreams. Make a list of all you want and spend 33 seconds a day visualising it. And gradually these things manifest.
But of course, in that process you will have lots of doubts coming up. So what you do is release those doubts. Which means you are going to spend more time discreating than creating. Because creation is easy. So if I spend 33 seconds visualising what I want to create and doubts are arising, I’ve got to go into that doubt first. So welcome the doubt and when it’s gone, tomorrow when I visualise, ‘yes, it’s going to happen’. So release that doubt.
So every time you visualise it’s going to trigger those old memories, those doubts, as past creations reassert themselves. If you take it back to the simplicity of us being creators, pure awareness does three things: it creates, it experiences and it discreates. Because we haven’t finished experiencing things we can’t discreate and it gets stuck there. Every time you create something new, these old ones reassert themselves. Simple.
So we will welcome them, feel them, and when you’ve finished feeling them you let them go – discreation. Discreation isn’t something you force. I am not saying destroy – I am saying allow it to discreate itself. When you’ve finished feeling it, it fades away cause there’s no more energy left.
What will happen when you feel anything is that there is an expansion in that situation. You don’t just feel one emotion at a time really, lots of people try to focus on one emotion but in any situation that you want to break down in life and want to get rid of you will feel emotions changing. One minute you will feel angry and then you feel frustrated then you feel tired then you feel fed up then you feel hopeless – and you will change around because they are all part of that same situation. And as you expand you feel one and then the other, until you feel the whole lot. So welcome the expansion of emotions.
Then you get to a point where you get to the edge of that creation where you are not inside it any more. You’ve felt it all and you look at the whole picture. And you realise this is entirely my creation. The energy has gone, you watch it dissipating, and it’s gone. So the process of releasing is also the process of discreating the realities you don’t want. When you go through grief in the past you will find it’s tied to something in your present that’s triggering it. It hasn’t gone away because you haven’t finished with it. You might have past pains and they keep happening. You might have a past loss of love and your present relationship looks like it will go the same way. The pains being triggered again.
So within each situation, when you go into emotion there’s a whole situation you expand into. And maybe not just one memory, but many that are similar, maybe many times you’ve been in heartbreak and as you expand into that pattern you feel all of them, and all the emotions around it: the anger, the frustrations, the loss, the crying, the giving up and the hopelessness. When you’ve felt it all, you’ve reached the edge of it, you step out of it: you’ve seen the whole thing. And you realise, ‘this isn’t me. This is my creation.’ Now when you are in it you identified, you were stuck in those emotions. When you have expanded through it, seen the edge of the whole thing: that’s when the pain goes.
When it’s gone from that level it never comes back. Your life changes. You let it go and you can visualise something better in the future, you can create what you want. So it’s good when you are doing this work to also remember what you want to create. Because you are actually releasing your ability as a creator. Healing isn’t just about treating a disease, it’s about healing your life, getting back to being a God – evolving into what we really can be.
We can create all our dreams. At the same time those dreams become less important because we realise this world is an illusion. We can change our lives. If it’s a dream it can be anything you want.
The things that you make real are the things that you won’t change. You find some people are good at manifesting some things but not others. Because some things are too real for them. Some people can manifest little things like a parking space in the right spot. But when they’ve got a real problem it doesn’t work. It will often be their health, it could be their job or their money, it could be their relationship. Whatever you make real is the thing you have the most difficulty changing. If you’re life is all an illusion, it should be easy to change. It’s a bit like being a little child and playing pretend games – have some more tea, here’s some more cake. You can have as much nothing as you want. And don’t get jealous of someone who’s got more nothing than you.
Life’s like that – you can create it all. But if you make it real, you get emotions stuck in place, and you can’t change it any more. So as you release different emotions that also form attachment, you recognise more and more that this is all illusion. And everything you feel that’s happened is simply because you are dreaming it.
So, then. What you focus on changes as well because you are less attached to ‘real’ things. You can still have them – because they are the icing on the cake. But it actually makes no difference if you live in poverty or wealth when it’s not real. If I say my spirituality depends on me not having it, I’m making it very real. So you can see how that doesn’t work. It doesn’t help you to be poor. It doesn’t make you more spiritual. Just like being rich doesn’t make you more spiritual. Some people think if you haven’t got the money you’re not ready for this. But that’s also an illusion. None of these things are a measure of who you are and if they are not real you can change them.
So having things is fun. Just like a child playing pretend games, you can have as much nothing as you want. But that’s not what’s real. What’s going to become more real is the love you will be finding inside, your power, your spirituality and the higher levels of enthusiasm you feel for life – that’s consciousness, that’s real. It’s material things that are not real.
The body changes also more easily when it’s not real. It’s interesting how you can limit the healing by holding onto things too much. Many years ago, I treated someone with arthritis – he had arthritis all over his body but mainly in his wrists for some reason – and the arthritis healed everywhere, but not in his wrists. He said ‘It’s not working. My wrists are still not working and that’s what I came for.’ So his wrists never actually got better, because that was the bit he was focused on. So what you put your mind on and make important, that’s what you get stuck on. When someone focuses on the physical problems alone they often forget to deal with the emotions behind them. It’s not going to change until you do.
There are many different forms of healing, and through pointholding, pressing acupressure points, while thinking ‘I’ve got a physical problem so I need to do this’ – that’s the wrong attitude. Because pointholding is about changing consciousness. When you change consciousness, the body follows. The points you are pressing release emotions. They trigger memories. If you relive the memory, then the body heals. But you can make anything physical too important if you give it the wrong attention.
So it’s good to know if you want to heal something you have to go to the emotional level, not just the physical. And if you are worried about something, go into the worry, that’s OK. Don’t make it too real and think ‘this is not working’. But it’s also OK to go into the apathy and think ‘Nothing is going to work’ – that’s a level of emotion, too. With apathy, you think nothing is going to work – it’s been there forever and is never going to change and that’s OK, welcome that. But you have to go through the emotion.
When you really feel the apathy enthusiastically, it’s changing, it’s not the same as believing it. You can welcome something without identifying it. You don’t make it real. Like when you are feeling angry, it doesn’t mean you are going to hit somebody.
You can be pressing points and person who is releasing anger might project it onto you. ‘You’re making me angry because you are pressing my points.’ Doesn’t mean you have to hit them. It’s your anger. If you start projecting, anyway, it’s going to get silly – because it’s not you they’re angry with.
You can help by expressing verbally. When someone is going through pain you can say ‘that’s wonderful.’ But what’s more important is the attitude with which you hold someone, that also changes them. That’s why we have this attitude that they are a God. So there’s a sense of, a kind of appreciation there. So what actually makes the illusion real is seriousness. Appreciation is the answer to seriousness.
If someone is expressing all these problems I’m thinking ‘Wow – you created that so well.’ And as you say it that attitude is already loosening what’s holding onto them. So a person can talk to you about their problems, but if you are listening to them in a certain way they are already changing, because of appreciation.
You’re not giving sympathy and ‘believing’ those problems, you’re thinking ‘This is a God. You’ve created these things in great detail.’ When you have that attitude all you can hold is appreciation and enthusiasm. So the appreciation and enthusiasm come from seeing the person as God and not as limitation.
Question: will we just feel emotions, or will we remember specific things?
Different emotions also have different levels of memory. When you’re in numbness you just feel numb, you don’t know what’s in there. When you get to the grief you the feeling that something happened, but you don’t quite know what. When you’re in fear there’s more memory, because you remember what kind of things you’re afraid of. Anger gives you a bit more complete memory because if you are angry with a person you know exactly what they did.
It’s not one-sided though. When you go to pain, you see both sides of the picture. It’s not one-sided anymore. Memory gets more complete as you go up the scale.
You don’t have to talk about what you are remembering – it’s up to you. Sometimes a person is too quiet so it’s a good idea to talk to them about what they are feeling to get things moving. On the other hand, if someone’s too noise they’re not actually feeling. So you’ve got to find a balance in-between. The important thing is to feel. And however that affects your actions, that’s OK. If you need to express yourself, or if you don’t – either way it’s OK, as long as you’re feeling.
And remember, as people process things your attitude is changing them. So, instead of ‘poor you’, say ‘wonderful, feel that!’ people can take their problems too seriously, and it’s seriousness that holds the illusion together. I’m not saying be silly about it – it’s not appropriate to laugh at them! But you should be encouraging them by being enthusiastic. Obviously, what you say matters, but more important is the attitude inside, seeing them as God. The create it and they can change it. People come here to be healed fist. You can talk metaphysics later.
Metaphysics is part of the process, but not at the beginning. But the right attitude has to be there. The important thing is that inside yourself you are seeing them as a creator. You know they are a divine being that creates everything. It’s the appreciation that’s important.
They are as much the healer as you are. They create their own reality. However, let’s look at what that means in terms of responsibility. Quite often New Age people don’t understand responsibility. They say ‘it’s not my fault, it’s yours’. That’s like if someone punches you in the nose and then says, ‘you create your own reality’. Of course there’s impact. But also, how you deal with the impact matters emotionally. Saying ‘it’s your problem’ is apathy. But if you see a problem and are in a state of enthusiasm you create an opportunity to participate in the solution. That’s when you are participating. When you are being enthusiastic and are participating, just by being enthusiastic, you’re becoming part of the solution. You’re raising their vibration, helping them.
Enthusiasm is not passive. It’s an energy. It changes things. Love isn’t just passive. You see, love doesn’t do anything unless it’s combined with will. Anyone who does magick knows that love and will are bound together. Love without will isn’t going to do anything, is it? Will is where you say I am loving you in a particular way right now. So it has to be active. And the energy you’re putting out there – enthusiasm – is like love in action, because your energy is healing them. You’re pressing points instead of sitting back and saying ‘yeah, I love you.’
So, it’s good to understand love then, isn’t it? Because a lot of people say they love you, but they are not actually showing that love. You often see it among New Age people, where they tell you some ‘home truths’ saying ‘this is for your own good’ and then they say they love you and that makes it OK. It doesn’t make it OK, though, does it?
What is love, what does it do? It creates value, it creates pleasure, it creates a sense of being known, it creates a sense of becoming more, it elevates your presence – if you’re not feeling those things it’s not love. And tearing down somebody’s self-worth and saying, ‘I love you’ is not love. It’s not the words that matter, it’s our whole understanding of it.
In pointholding the thing is to understand how to lovingly endure the pain. Because if you are open to love you don’t mind if it hurts. When you are low in enthusiasm you can’t stand the pain. When your energy’s higher you don’t mind it hurting so much. You’re not actually hurting them – you’re triggering the pain they’ve got inside them. It’s hurting so much because there’s crystals there.
Of course, if you press hard on any point it’s going to hurt, but that’s not healing. So you prod around different points and where one hurts, that’s where you’re holding. Just enough to make it hurt. Not too hard. But you are going to maintain pressure for a couple of hours, so if it’s too hard you won’t be able to hold on. There’s quite a firm pressure to maintain, because you’ve got to keep that pain in that point.
We will change though, because when the emotions start flying out we forget the pain and go into something else. It hurts at first, but the pain soon passes and you feel all the numbness and the apathy and grief and all the different emotions coming out, and you go through the memories. Then it all goes and it doesn’t hurt anymore.
So, you have to remember what love does. It gives pleasure, safety, value, a sense of being known, celebration, a sense of becoming more … the thing about love is it changes you, it makes you more. It doesn’t say don’t change, it doesn’t say you have to change, it says I love you as you are but through my love I make you more. Because when you love you change, you grow. This is why people have a problem with love. A lot of people have problems with intimacy because love changes them. They don’t have control. They know how to deal with the rubbish in their lives and all the difficult emotions, but when it comes to love they close off. A lot of people in relationships, when it gets too intimate, they shut off. Love changes you. It also brings out the shame, and quite often you close off because you don’t want the other to see your shame.
Shame is a tricky one to deal with, and we’ll talk about that more during the week. But when shame is felt, that’s often one of the most difficult ones. People numb out most under shame. When you’re in shame you produce endorphins more than 200 times stronger than morphine – because shame is really difficult to feel. So quite often people hide that away and when you get close to someone you are afraid they are going to see bits of you you don’t like, bits you’re ashamed of. That’s when you close off.
Shame is a big blockage to the flow of love. So therefore it’s the first thing to get flushed out. So when you’re pressing points and feeling unworthy and all kinds of other stuff, go feel that, too. It will pass when you’ve felt it.
Sometimes, your shame’s been given to you by someone else and it has to be given back. And the reason why many people practice abusive behaviour is they don’t want to feel their shame so get someone else to feel it for them. When someone’s tearing you down, you feel bad, and quite often they go away and they’ve given their shame to you. And that kind of shame is very difficult to forgive because you haven’t done anything.
There’s nothing to forgive. You give it back to whoever gave it to you. So when you go through shame and realise somebody’s dumped this on you, squeeze it out and give it back. And it’s not difficult to do because shame is an energy that’s been passed on and can be squeezed out .
As a little exercise, can you think of a time that shame’s been dumped on you? Somebody shamed you in some way, put you down, made you feel bad about yourself. Close your eyes and go back there for a moment. Feel where that hits you in the body. You will feel it in some part of the body somewhere.
Now imagine you’ve got a sack and begin to squeeze it out of the body, pushing through the pores, into the sack. It feels a bit like pushing a hard-boiled egg through a sieve. So when you squeeze that back you can give it back to them and say ‘this is your shame – I’m not carrying it for you anymore’. And it will go. Only the person who created it can forgive it. If you haven’t created it there’s nothing to forgive. So sometimes if you are feeling shame it has to be given back to the person who created it.
So let me show you a few points to be getting on with.
The first one is often the STO. This point triggers the nerve supply – so you can feel everything else. Sometimes when a person is numbing out the nerve supply withdraws and it’s hard to feel any points. Sometimes a person presses reflex points, nothing hurts and they think they are healthy. But they just can’t feel. After you’ve done this point they can feel everything else.
It doesn’t mean you’re healthy if you don’t feel pain. If you look at the lesions in the iris it will tell you where it should hurt. So if you press the STO, it allows the body to feel. And then we can start moving up the scale of emotions from numbness and so on. So this is often the first point that triggers it all.
(Explains some of the other key points for pressing.)